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27 January 2007 @ 11:38 am
Title: Watching Kittens
Author: omen1x2
Rating: R
Fandom: ALvino, Kirito
Pairing: Koji x Shouta, Jun + Kirito, Kirito x Jun
Summary: Taking a break from my Word Game to write an ALvino fic request for negiyou. Jun POV. Fluffy and angsty.

Watching Kittens

by Omen-chan

I always love changing Rill's kitty litter. When it hadn't been cleaned for a while, she would get pissy and antsy, and she wouldn't let me pet her when I wanted to. But I would do it to her, just to watch her when I finally did clean her litter box. First, she'd stare at it, the light of all holiness shining down on her now clean litter box. Daintily, she'll set one paw into it, spreading her claws out as if savoring this wonderful feeling of cleanliness, and then, slowly, oooooohhh so slowly, she finally moves to stand in it. She doesn't need to use it, she just wants to enjoy this.

It always reminded me of Kirito when we hadn't seen each other for a while. An odd comparison, I know, with Shinya as a cat and me as his litter box, but it makes sense to me. He would step into the airport terminal, or the hotel room, or my apartment, and just stare at me for hours on end. Pause and breathe and stare.

His eyes are always so eloquent. Every time he did it, I would blush. It was always most embarrassing when he would find me just after I'd gotten out of the shower, a towel around my waist the only thing keeping me from complete nudity.

Thinking about it now, I find it kind of odd that he managed to catch me coming out of the shower more often than not. Not that odd, though. Kirito Knows All.

I can't help but blush even now as I think about this.

After he finally got enough of staring at me, he would step closer, reaching out to touch my neck, or my chest with nothing more than a finger, and then slowly, so torturously slow, he would spread his fingers out, touching me as if I were something holy.

Fuck, I miss that.

I never thought I could think of Kirito so much as when we were together. Back then, my whole world revolved around him.

But now, it's worse.

I watch Koji and Shouta, so happy, so into each other, so... in love.

They giggle like children, and cuddle like puppies, and kiss like lovers. So kittenish and cute.

They're precious, and I love having my two best friends so happy.

But I'm not used to this. Even after a year, I'm still not used to this.

It's weird, being the one on the outside looking in after so many years.

And years. It would always be me and Kirito, before. It would always be about us. Anyone could see it. It wasn't so much that we would be all over each other all the time, not really. That was the beauty of it. We didn't have to. We could be on the opposite sides of a room, and it would still be all about us.

Before, it was everyone else looking in on us.

And we were so involved with each other, we never even noticed.

That's why I can't get upset with them. Because I know they don't even realise it.

I smile along with Shouta as Koji tucks a bit of Shouta's hair behind his ear. It's just so natural for them, what they do. Casual and pure and friendly as well as loving.

And every time I see it, my heart aches.

Fuck, I miss Shinya.

I miss him so much.


So, what'd you think? ^____^
~Nuile~: kirinuile on January 27th, 2007 06:53 pm (UTC)
Lovely! <3
Poor, poor Jun. I guess he should get his Kirito back. -_+V
Omen-chan: Kirito x Junomen1x2 on January 27th, 2007 07:07 pm (UTC)
*nods* He really does! I'm thinking about doing a sequel to this one where he does. ^_____^
~Nuile~: claimednuile on January 27th, 2007 07:23 pm (UTC)
Goood! ^-^v *sitts down on the pillow and waits for the sequel*
Omen-chanomen1x2 on January 27th, 2007 07:59 pm (UTC)
It might take me a while, so you might want to get a snack first. XD
Suenegiyou on January 28th, 2007 05:36 pm (UTC)
oh my this was .... love? great? intense? touching? sad? warming? comfy? soft? .... those words jump into my mind when I read this, and I read it four times so far.

We could be on the opposite sides of a room, and it would still be all about us.

this is one of the best lines I've ever read in dandiction, I can't really say why, but I love it! Every word of it.

this is art!

thank you.
Omen-chanomen1x2 on January 29th, 2007 03:25 am (UTC)
It makes me amazingly happy that you have loved every fic I've written for you. I tend to try my hardest for you, because you're a fantastic writer, and I want to prove myself to you. ^^

Suenegiyou on January 29th, 2007 01:05 pm (UTC)
a fatastic weiter? thank you so much, you have absolutely no idea how much that means to me, especially when it comes from somone like you! Thank you!!!!
Omen-chanomen1x2 on January 29th, 2007 05:21 pm (UTC)
You really are. ^____^
And you're welcome.
kyuichi18 on February 18th, 2008 12:20 pm (UTC)
Aww poor baby~~

And yes, odd comparison indeed o.O;;
Omen-chan: Kirito - Daybreak02omen1x2 on February 18th, 2008 12:28 pm (UTC)
I totally got the idea for this from my (now dead ;_;) kitten Harlequin. Whenever I cleaned her litter box, she'd do what I describe Rill doing here, and the way she spread out her claws in the sand was almost worshipful. Made me think of this.
kyuichi18 on February 18th, 2008 12:52 pm (UTC)
OMG thats so cute! ><
But I'm so sorry to hear (see) about that T_T
Missing her much? *hugs*
Omen-chanomen1x2 on February 18th, 2008 01:01 pm (UTC)
Yeah, I miss her every day. ;_____; *hugs back*
kyuichi18 on February 18th, 2008 01:32 pm (UTC)
*cries* poor baby *hugs*
was it naturally or...?
I can't imagine~ Thats also one of the reasons why I don't want a pet :(
Omen-chan: Takeoomen1x2 on February 18th, 2008 05:29 pm (UTC)
No, my neighbors a few doors down have these big dogs that used to get out of their yard every day, and they got into ours and killed her. My mom and I pressed charges (which the neighbors tried to fight. The judge absolutely hated them, and actually charged them twice as much because they kept lying in court).