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26 November 2006 @ 09:47 pm
Title: Smiling
Author: omen1x2
Rating: PG-13
Fandom: Pierrot
Pairings: Jun + Kirito (if you want to see it that way).
Summary: Jun POV. Simple character drabble.
Disclaimer: Like all fanfic writers, I twist reality to please me.


by Omen-chan

Welcome to my life.

Day after day, I tread the murky waters of guilt and self-loathing. The pain of knowing that I've destroyed everything I loved most, and I did it with a smile on my face. I don't even know if anyone noticed the tears through the smile.

He might have, once, but I can't be sure anymore. I can't be sure if anyone really knows me anymore, if anyone even notices. All they see is the smile on my face.

Did you know that skeletons are all grinning? There's nothing to a smile. I'm smiling now. Smiling at the realisation that his lyrics ambushed me. Smiling skeleton. He always said that it was about the heartless souls of America and Japan, but I always thought there was something more to it. Something closer to home.

Maybe he still saw me, after all.

I remember a time when I was happy, a time when I was innocent, "pure as snow," he used to say. I don't know if it was just growing up, or if it was him rubbing off on me, or if life hit me too hard.

I'm cynical, and dark, and no one sees it anymore.

You know what's easier than having a smile on your face? Typing a smile on you computer. No one sees you except the screen.

And it's not telling anyone.


I've been doing a lot of drabbles lately, haven't I? Yes, I really will finish Fate soon (I have the next chapter written, I just have to find the incentive to think that it's good enough to type).

You like? Yes, no, could care less? Let me know, please.
violetpoofvioletpoof on November 27th, 2006 04:17 am (UTC)
LOVES!!!!! *nostalgic*
Omen-chan: Miyavi's Clothing is Always Optionalomen1x2 on November 27th, 2006 04:24 am (UTC)
Thanks. XD
pandamanium on November 27th, 2006 05:36 am (UTC)
Your icon is going to give me nightmares.
Omen-chan: kannivalism's Ryoomen1x2 on November 27th, 2006 05:45 am (UTC)
Yes, it's going to be haunting me in my dreams as well. XDDDD
pandamanium on November 27th, 2006 05:35 am (UTC)
Ooo, I like the last sentence. XD

The whole Smiling Skeleton bit is cool too- I have to go listen to that song now.

Poor Jun. ~.~
Omen-chan: Junomen1x2 on November 27th, 2006 05:46 am (UTC)
Like you need an excuse to listen to such an awesome song? XD

But yeah, poor baby. ;_; *hugs him*
Suenegiyou on November 27th, 2006 12:58 pm (UTC)
okay, you're turning me into a constant drabble-reader, damn you for that >.< (joking)
I like the idea, very much so! The comparison skeleton-Jun just hurts to the core, and it makes sense I think.
I still don't know why, but this drabble fascinates me... can't say more!
Omen-chan: I love my fandom. ^___^omen1x2 on November 27th, 2006 03:07 pm (UTC)
Well, drabbles can be pretty damn good, you know? Makes for some great character analyses.

*nods* And I think part of the reason why Kirito is such an amazing lyricist is because his lyrics are about more than just one thing. Layers alwways make for more thought-provoking lines.

Actually, this one rather fascinates me too. When I write drabbles, I'm actually following the meaning of the word to a T - I'm just writing whatever strikes me, without thinking, and if it can turn out to make sense, then more power to me. :P
Mizukikikai_no_yume on November 27th, 2006 02:49 pm (UTC)
drabbles are good~^^ but, I do hope you'll have Fate updated soon^^
I like it^^
That last sentence is so true...
Omen-chan: Miyavi - Friendsomen1x2 on November 27th, 2006 03:08 pm (UTC)
Yeah, I think I'm going to go ahead and type up the next chapter today, even though I still think it's crap. -____-
badurakku on November 27th, 2006 08:31 pm (UTC)
I love it. ;; ♥ (Note to self: start keeping hankies around when reading Omen's fics... XD)

I especially like the whole 'smiling skeleton' thing. (Bah, now I want to go listen to it too...)
Omen-chan: Kirito x Junomen1x2 on November 28th, 2006 03:22 am (UTC)
*hands over a tissue* I didn't realise that it was that sad. :P

And like I said before, you really don't need to have an excuse to listen to such an awesome song. :P
badurakku on November 28th, 2006 08:27 pm (UTC)
*sniffle* It is. XD But then again, PIERROT fics in general depress me. Especially KiriJun fics. (Hence why I've given up on writing them. *SWT* I'll just stick to drawing.)

True. ;P But I've had a hard time listening to anything but FOLLOWER lately... that song has taken over my brain. XD
kaseycleon on November 27th, 2006 09:28 pm (UTC)
"Pairings: Jun + Kirito (if you want to see it that way)."

It sounds as if you're leaving the pairing question open-ended. How unlike you, Katie Kaufman! :P

Anyway, I loved it. Even though I know absolutely nothing about the fandom, I loved it.
Omen-chan: kannivalism's Keiomen1x2 on November 28th, 2006 03:24 am (UTC)
Nothing wrong with a slight change. At least it still features my favorites!

*pokes* You know, by now, you really ought to know more. You've been my friend for how long? XD
Piac: Kirito!x_shock_me_x on November 28th, 2006 02:06 pm (UTC)
awww *LOVES*

and I love the whole Smiling Skeleton thing!! *has to go off and listen to that song now*

ps - Sorry I didn't comment sooner
Omen-chan: Kirito - Agitatoromen1x2 on November 30th, 2006 05:22 am (UTC)
Don't worry about it. I think that sometimes, I have to nudge people really, really hard to remind them that, yes, I wrote something, and yes, I would like knowing what people thought of it.

And, again, people really shouldn't need an excuse to listen to something that awesome. :P
aliale on November 28th, 2006 02:44 pm (UTC)
the words "creepy" pops into my head

this got my spin shivering
Omen-chan: Takeoomen1x2 on November 30th, 2006 05:22 am (UTC)
*head tilt* Okay, I don't think I was trying for creepy, but you know... Whatever. :P
aliale on November 30th, 2006 08:07 am (UTC)
don'y mind me, i'm pretty weird lately.
yokozukiyokozuki on November 29th, 2006 04:26 am (UTC)
ARGH JUN you're killing me... ;_;
I don't have anything useful to say. I'm sorry. I read it and liked it and here is a comment. ^_^ *hugs*
Omen-chan: Jun02omen1x2 on November 30th, 2006 05:25 am (UTC)
*sniffles* I need happy Pierrot boyos, I really do.
Satchansuperfreak46 on December 9th, 2006 04:10 am (UTC)
Kawaii desu ne~!