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26 June 2006 @ 02:49 pm
Title: Fate Chapter Three
Author: omen1x2
Rating: PG-13
Fandom: Pierrot
Pairing: Kirito x Jun
Status: Ongoing
Summary: Kirito's having a breakdown after the break-up, and he keeps reminiscing.
Warning: Extreme angst. Still.
Disclaimer: Like all fanfic writers, I twist reality to please me.
Special Notes: I finally got off of my damn lazy ass and started the new chapter. Sorry for the long wait. >.<;;

Chapter One
Chapter Two

Chapter Three

By Omen-chan

Kirito was barely ever sober when he was home now. He had taken to working until he dropped, and Kohta and Takeo, worried, would practically force him into his front door. Luckily, Kirito had had the presence of mind to hire someone to take care of his dog, otherwise, the poor thing would have starved.

One day, he walked into his apartment to find Aiji there.

It took him a long moment to realize that he wasn't hallucinating from either exhaustion, or alcohol, or both.

They stared each other down for several excruciatingly long moments before Kirito relented and asked, voice tight, what he was doing there.

Awkward, forlorn, and altogether miserable, Aiji just sighed and told him to straighten out or he would drop dead, and people would be sad.

Kirito nodded, said he understood, and kicked Aiji out.

Conversations with Aiji were always very tense. And this time, he knew Aiji was right.

That didn't help at all.

They were both too stubborn to ever be as comfortable with each other as they'd used to be. The closeness was gone, dead, along with so many other things.

It was just another reason for Kirito to reach for his bottle and down it as quickly as possible.

Whimpering, Kirito's puppy curled up at his feet.

Kirito loved his puppy. But he didn't like how his presence was a constant, painful reminder of Jun. Jun's enthusiasm, his affection…

The first time they'd slept together, it had been as natural as everything else about their friendship. There hadn't been any world-altering revelations, just the knowledge that this too was as much a part of them and their lives together as everything else.

Neither had ever had the slightest doubt.

They'd be together for the rest of their lives. And even if the sexual desire waned, they would still be best friends.


This time, Kirito and his puppy whimpered simultaneously.

It was getting harder and harder for Kirito…

Harder and harder for him to be able to believe that, eventually, he would be all right.

He had never been that successful in convincing himself anyway.

Jun played with Kirito's hair, a kind of innocent bliss settling over his features. "Do you remember the time we first met, Shinya?"

Jun still called Kirito Shinya a great deal in private. It was warmer, more inviting, he said.

Kirito knew what Jun was talking about, but he decided to tease him some. "You mean at the bar? What about it?"

Jun pulled at Kirito's hair. Not rough, but enough to let Kirito know that this was no time to be facetious. "You know what I'm talking about."

Kirito smiled and winked at Jun. "Of course I do. Hard to forget a meeting like that."

"Did you know that I came back to that park a year later? I think some part of me was hoping you might still be there."

Kirito, pained, closed his eyes. "We moved away from that area three months later. But I came back to wait for you every day of them."

Jun, stricken, stopped playing with Kirito's hair and wrapped his arms around him, bare chest to bare chest. "I'm sorry," he mumbled into Kirito's shoulder.

Kirito held Jun tightly. "Not your fault," he whispered into Jun's hair.

Kohta half-watched Takeo play his drums. His heart wasn't really into making music at the moment, not even playing at making music with his best friend.

"I called Aiji yesterday."

Takeo stopped, his drumsticks poised in the air, as if Kohta had pressed a "pause" button on a remote control. Slowly, Takeo lowered his drumsticks, setting them on the table he'd been using as a makeshift drum. He cleared his throat. "I thought you two weren't talking." A statement, but Takeo made it sound like a question.

"We weren't. But I'm worried about Kirito, and I don't think he's ready to see Jun yet." Kohta rarely referred to his brother as "Aniki" anymore. He tended to call him "Kirito" as everyone else did.

"Why not?"

Kohta paused. "They're both too heartbroken."

"What did you think Aiji could do?"

"I was hoping he'd at least make Kirito mad. At least then he wouldn't be in this state of… soul death."

Takeo nodded. "But it didn't work."

Kohta sighed and nodded back. "I didn't think it would. The reason why Kirito is dying inside is because of Jun, not Aiji."

"Then why did you do it?"

"I figured we had enough division without me making it harder about Aiji."

Takeo beamed at him. "Why, Kohta, are you growing up?"

Kohta shrugged and picked up his bass guitar, tired of the conversation, of his constant worry for his brother, of the heavy burden that seemed to have settled over him, over Takeo, over Kirito. "I hope not. Growing up is nothing but misery. I've been fighting against it for over thirty years."

Takeo nodded sadly. The disbandment had made them all realize something they'd have rather not known.

Nothing is infallible, and nothing is forever.

And that's why it had hit Kirito the hardest, because the lesson had come with a price. It hadn't just been the loss of a band. Not for him.

~to be continued…~

Oho! Progress! Finally. And, what's more, we get to see things from Kohta's and Takeo's points of view too, which is something that I've been wanting to do for a while.

And comment. Comment comment comment comment. You read, you comment. Period.
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Misuno: Tsukasakaraktsutani on June 26th, 2006 08:26 pm (UTC)
0.0 Uwaaa~

I like the ficcy so far~

Write more soon, ne? ^^
Omen-chanomen1x2 on June 26th, 2006 09:18 pm (UTC)
I'm glad you like it! And I'll do my best to have the next chapter up soon, okay?
Misuno: Aoikaraktsutani on June 26th, 2006 09:45 pm (UTC)
^^ YaY!!

Okay then, i'll wait till then XDDDDD


*pets Kirito* poor fluffball..o.o
Omen-chan: Miyavi02omen1x2 on June 26th, 2006 11:40 pm (UTC)
Interesting fact: I really wish Kirito would tell us the name of his puppy. It's amazingly annoying having to refer to him as "Kirito's Puppy" all the time.
Misuno: Matoi - Jealousykaraktsutani on June 28th, 2006 02:55 am (UTC)
haha I bet

Damn Kirito, he likes making it hard on us and not telling the name. *_*

Still luv em tho.
*licks him*
yokozukiyokozuki on June 26th, 2006 09:02 pm (UTC)
Aw. Gah. ;_; Yargh. ;_; Wah. ;_; Wah. ;_; Wah. ;_; *WAILS*

*sniffles* PUUUUPPPYYYYYYYYYY~~ ;_; ;_; ;_;

I'm glad puppy is okay.
I feel just like him, though. Kirito sooo saaad ;______;
Your flashbacks are great.
Omen-chan: Kirito x Junomen1x2 on June 26th, 2006 09:20 pm (UTC)
*hands over some tissues* Yeah, uber-depressed Kirito gets to me too. And putting in the parts with the puppy always just wrench at my heartstrings.... *sniffles and grabs a tissue for herself*
__Azamir__azamir on June 26th, 2006 09:05 pm (UTC)
T_T kiri, come to your senses!

*sigh* it's so sad... but a very good story! thanks so much! I can't wait to read on!
Omen-chan: Junomen1x2 on June 26th, 2006 09:22 pm (UTC)
I'll do my best to finish the next chapter a lot sooner than this one. I should probably get the next chapter finished within the next couple of days. Hopefully.
Piac: Sho and Kei Moon Childx_shock_me_x on June 26th, 2006 09:29 pm (UTC)
I think I must have missed a chapter while I was on holiday but yayy all caught up now! :)
Yayy for angsty sexy men!
Yayy for cute puppy!!
Yaayy for ficcie keeping me glued!!
In general...yaaayy!!

Omen-chanomen1x2 on June 26th, 2006 11:37 pm (UTC)
Glad it's keeping yo happy. ^^
Piac: Laruku Hydex_shock_me_x on June 27th, 2006 05:55 am (UTC)
Hope you write more soon! *grabs a new box of issues*
izayoi_miki on June 27th, 2006 12:07 am (UTC)

I wanna cry!

And hug Kirito. Badly. *sniffs*
Omen-chan: Hyde02omen1x2 on June 27th, 2006 02:42 am (UTC)
Yeah, me too. I want to so much that that's really a big reason for this fic. So people might stop blaming Kirito. (Because some of them are.... grrr...)
bananaheartxbananaheartx on June 27th, 2006 02:20 am (UTC)
-Hugs Kirtio and puppy-

Well, it's good to know Takeo's and Kohta's out view of it. And this makes me wonder if they really did stop talking to each other because that would just be terrible. I can understand a tense and awkward atmosphere around them, so they probably aren't as close in reality, but still, it hurts to see that with really good friends. D:

Great update and chapter~
Omen-chan: Aoiomen1x2 on June 27th, 2006 04:22 am (UTC)
Yeah, the major reason why the breakup affected me as badly as it did was simply because I was terrified that they weren't friends anymore. The breakup seemed rather horrible and bloody for a disbandment, and the idea that they might not be friends anymore is a constant source of worry for me.
☆Ky~Ky♡xquirkylove on June 27th, 2006 06:44 pm (UTC)
._. Ah, that last sentence. ._. ..
hrm... Ahhh. Kirito's puppy scenes make me whimper T-T

Growing up. Hrm. Nothing but misery aye. :| hrmmmmm.

I like how the story is coming ^^ !
Omen-chanomen1x2 on June 27th, 2006 11:01 pm (UTC)
TT_TT Yes, the Kirito puppy scenes are the real heart-wrenchers, aren't they?
Ray Hino Murataloucanet_ray on June 28th, 2006 02:33 am (UTC)
You keep writting wonderfully ~ Or maybe even better. Amd teh story is still gorgeous and involving ~ Those kind of stories that makes us want to read more and more ~ That's why I hopw you'll do it... *_*~
Great job, once again! o/
Omen-chan: Kirito x Junomen1x2 on June 28th, 2006 02:58 am (UTC)
I'm not so mean that I'd start a fic and not finish it when people like it. Which is why I'm so mean about people who don't comment. I don't like putting in a lot of work for a fic, and have people either not read it, or they DO read it, and don't even bother telling me what they think. In fact, it upsets me so much, I'm going to post an entry about how even a lot of my friends haven't been commenting. Time to weed out my friend's list, methinks.

Don't worry, you're safe.
Batmanfuckingfirefly on June 28th, 2006 05:22 pm (UTC)
Oh.. God, this is great.. ;_; *teary-eyed* Ah, keep writin', I must have more! .. Please?:3
Omen-chan: Kirito - Daybreakomen1x2 on June 28th, 2006 05:32 pm (UTC)
Okay! I'll do my best to have the next chapter soon!
Aka -- raped by the god damned sun: Tora // Tora loves youi_need_asagi on August 2nd, 2006 04:52 am (UTC)
Ohhh! This is great! Depresed Kirito just gets me. ;_______;
Suenegiyou on September 7th, 2006 07:18 am (UTC)
Yay for brotherly love here! *thumbs up*
and the part with Aiji really really hurt you know... that those two are so uncomfortable with each other...
It's hard to read this, it's hard to force myself not to think about that maybe it's been like that, not as bad as you describe it, but feelings deep down maybe are somewhat similar in real life... it hurts.