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31 May 2010 @ 07:28 pm
[fic] Before Beginnings; G; TVXQ  
Title: Before Beginnings
Author: omen1x2
Rating: G
Pairing: pre-JaeChun
Disclaimer: Like all fanfic writers, I twist reality to please me.
Summary: Because Yoochun’s always believed in soulmates. Written specifically for sakura121 and vermeil, both of whom have had to wait way too long.

Before Beginnings
By Omen-chan

Yoochun is a born romantic. He believes in impossible things like soulmates and love at first sight and love going on through life, death, and rebirth.

He hates living in America. He hates being teased (even jokingly) about being a “foreigner,” because he does feel foreign. He hates the thought that no matter what he does, he can’t fit in, and he hates how lonely he is that he actually tries. He hates staying up every night listening to his parents fighting and hiding his own tears while trying to comfort Yoohwan through his.

He still believes in soulmates, though, and he clings to any love he can find. But sometimes, that usually just makes him feel lonelier, and he prays hopelessly for the chance of change.

When his girlfriend breaks up with him, he isn’t even surprised. He wasn’t cheating, exactly. He was just lonely, and she was nice and he was so damn desperate for affection that he couldn’t say no. Nonetheless, he isn’t surprised when both go sour, leaving him alone yet again.

He doesn’t miss Korea, exactly, but he dreams of a place where he can fit, snug and comfortable, a place where he can experience love and friendship without having to fight for it, a place where he can find that love that he’s always wanted and always believed in. He knows that his homeland isn’t exactly that place, but he remembers fitting there in a way he could never experience here. He remembers a time when his parents didn’t fight, and he could eat at his grandmother’s table and play with his friends without having to always pretend.

He can’t even remember what it’s like not to pretend anymore.

So when Brothers Entertainment tells him that his contract has been bought by SM Entertainment, he can’t even feel excitement. He thinks about being a foreigner all over again. About things like accents, clothing, and that same old loneliness, and this time, he won’t even have his family. He feels like a scared little boy again.

He hates airplanes, and can’t ever imagine a time when he won’t look at them with that old heart-clenching fear, that they’ll be taking him away, again and again, from the people and places he loves. He wonders if leaving is such a good idea, and clutches onto his little brother as if he’s losing the last thing he has on earth. He cries himself to sleep on the plane; huddled down in his seat and trying to pretend like he isn’t surrounded by strangers, that his seat doesn’t smell like feet.

He can’t imagine that the life can be any worse than the one he’s leaving, but he can’t imagine it will be any better, either.

“I’m Kim Jaejoong.”

“Park Yoochun.”

“You don’t look very American.”

A sigh, and a shrug. “Yeah.”

A pause, and a head tilt. “Let’s be roommates.”

“I… what?”

Yoochun has always believed in soulmates.


Author’s Comments: Okay, so it’s super short, and I apologize, especially since it’s been so long since I’ve even been online, let alone wrote anything. But I was determined to at least get something out today to celebrate acquiring a new computer finally, and being able to access the internet and everything. So hopefully no one’s upset that it’s so short. ^^;;;
mixiahelle: idkmybffmichellembam on June 1st, 2010 12:55 am (UTC)
aw~ soulmates ♥♥ guh
hooray for a new computer and internet! :Db
Omen-chan: Jaejoong Smileomen1x2 on June 1st, 2010 01:35 am (UTC)
I know! Oh, the joy. ♥

I hope I'll be able to write a bit more soon. ^^
juhli: Soulmates airportjuhli on June 1st, 2010 01:24 am (UTC)
when i reached the end, i had to smile ♥

thnx for writing
Omen-chan: JaeChunomen1x2 on June 1st, 2010 01:35 am (UTC)
You're welcome!
dollface: Jaechunstage_persona on June 1st, 2010 02:13 am (UTC)
simple and sweet, love it
Omen-chan: JaeChun in Parisomen1x2 on June 1st, 2010 09:03 am (UTC)
Thank you! ^o^
shinchul303shinchul303 on June 1st, 2010 02:45 am (UTC)
very nice summary of tons of hearthurt

will you follow up?
Omen-chan: kannivalism's Ryouomen1x2 on June 1st, 2010 09:05 am (UTC)
I'm not entirely sure. It's a possibility I considered even while writing it, but I still haven't decided entirely if I want to, since I ended this one exactly where I wanted. But I don't know, maybe?
itsumademo_aktfitsumademo_aktf on June 1st, 2010 03:26 am (UTC)
Beautiful! Brought tears to my eyes! Thanks for sharing!
Omen-chan: JaeChun - AADBSK3omen1x2 on June 1st, 2010 09:05 am (UTC)
Thank you! ♥
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Omen-chan: kannivalism's Keiomen1x2 on June 23rd, 2010 03:34 pm (UTC)
Brittany.ereluna on June 4th, 2010 05:32 pm (UTC)
Just so lovely. ^^ Short, sweet... and, I couldn't help but smile in the end because I was waiting for that moment. *-*

Thanks for writing!
thegazette5thegazette5 on June 22nd, 2010 01:40 am (UTC)
I don't think I've commented before, but I just had to say that I love your JaeChun fics.
Omen-chan: Kirito - Flowersomen1x2 on June 23rd, 2010 03:34 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much! ^^
.xsuju_addictx on November 8th, 2010 04:57 am (UTC)
A sequel is a work in literature, film, or other media that portrays events set in the same fictional universe as a previous work, usually chronologically following the events of that work.

In many cases, the sequel continues elements of the original story, often with the same characters and settings. A sequel can lead to a series, in which key elements appear in a number of stories.

*nudge nudge*
Omen-chan: Jaejoong Playing Chessomen1x2 on November 8th, 2010 11:26 am (UTC)
Sequel, sequel... We'll see, I guess. I've thought about it, but never really made up my mind if I should or not. Mostly because to me, JaeChun's lives afterward are the sequel, and no amount of fiction writing can improve on that. ♥