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24 September 2008 @ 11:38 am
Title: Protecting
Author: omen1x2
Rating: PG-13
Fandom: Luna Sea
Pairing: J x Inoran
Disclaimer: Like all fanfic writers, I twist reality to please me.
Summary: J always did protect Inoran. Even now, it's just from the sidelines. J POV. Drabble.


by Omen-chan

I should be doing something. It's right there, just teasing at the corners of my awareness, but I can't quite put my finger on it. I take a long gulp of beer, hoping the feeling will either go away, or become clearer. Whatever it is, it seems important.

I realize what it is when I wave the bartender over for another drink, and growl at myself. Inoran's not here. There's nothing to protect him from. I don't have to watch him out of the corner of my eye, constantly keeping tabs on him, saving him from himself. I can just enjoy my night out. No responsibilities.

Only now the feeling won't leave.

Even as I turn and start a conversation with the person next to me, dyed blond hair, pouty mouth, cute, but could be cuter, it's still there. Only now that I know what it is, the feeling's grown to epic proportions so that now it's all I can fucking see.

Well, there's no fun to be had for me tonight. I throw down some bills, probably cutting the poor guy off mid-sentence, and leave, silently cursing myself. Age-old habits just never die, I guess.

What if it isn't just a habit? The thought hits me right between the eyes, hard enough that I imagine I can actually feel the impact. What if, by some weird, stupid, psychic force, he does need me?

The idea makes me even more annoyed with myself than I already am. That's got to be the silliest thing that's ever made its way into my brain.

But it doesn't stop me from getting in my car and driving to him.

Inoran curls against me, lips brushing my shoulder. I glance at him to see if he's awake, or if it's just him moving in his sleep again, but it's hard to tell by looking at the top of his head.

See? I tell my stupid subconscious. He was perfectly fine. There was absolutely no fucking reason to ruin my night out.

This happens almost every time. I can't get it out of my head that Inoran... doesn't need me, exactly, but he needs someone, and I should be there to protect him. And when I see him, he looks perfectly fine, happy and bouncy and so totally Ino. But I have to be sure. I have to touch him, feel his skin, make sure he's right there. Make sure he's really okay.

In the end, I know, deep down, that it's just that I miss him.

I take a drag from my cigarette.

Doesn't make it any less annoying, though.

A: J [Luna Sea]narcolepticnemu on September 24th, 2008 04:55 pm (UTC)
Ooooooo you wrote another J x Ino. I LIKES IT VERY MUCH! They are so very cute together <33333

Yay for protective!J XDDDD
Omen-chan: MUCC - Dorks. XDomen1x2 on September 24th, 2008 04:57 pm (UTC)
Yay! I'm glad! I've been wanting to write them again ever since I wrote your drabble. Damn you. XD
A: Nao win! [Kagrra]narcolepticnemu on September 24th, 2008 04:59 pm (UTC)
HEEHEE. You cannot deny the awesomeness of J x Ino. GIVE IN AND WRITE MORE! >DDDD
Omen-chan: Miyavi's Clothing is Always Optionalomen1x2 on September 24th, 2008 05:00 pm (UTC)
*bows* Yes, master! I shall try!
The Rainbow Koala: j's mind controlmalicevampire90 on September 24th, 2008 08:26 pm (UTC)
oh my....moar! XD
Omen-chan: Minatoomen1x2 on September 24th, 2008 08:45 pm (UTC)
I actually have an idea for a sequel/companion fic. So... yeah... maybe I'll make "moar." XD
ketsuruiliket_sketsuruiliket_s on September 24th, 2008 08:46 pm (UTC)
I really really really really love your pierrot stories, so this is like heaven for me!!!! *.*

It was best!
Omen-chan: kannivalism - Ryou and Yuuchi - Hustleomen1x2 on September 25th, 2008 12:45 am (UTC)
*blushes* Awww! Thank you so much! ♥
Elenielenilovesyou on September 25th, 2008 08:46 am (UTC)
I just luv this pairing ~ and this was so cuuuuute

Omen-chan: Aijiomen1x2 on September 25th, 2008 05:27 pm (UTC)
Thank you! ^o^
graveyardgrin on December 8th, 2008 02:47 pm (UTC)
Omen-chan: I love my fandom. ^___^omen1x2 on December 8th, 2008 05:21 pm (UTC)
Thanks! ^o^